just another manic monday

Good morning day.  Drug my poor weary body out of bed this morning early to listen to the word of God and make an attempt to bring this week some peace.  And praise God we got to finally go to the movie Courageous last night- so good.  It spoke truth to us and was mostly amazing to see it affect my husband. 
I am mostly hit this morning by my overwhelming LAST night of nervousness for this week.  I just sat there not wanting to go to bed knowing that monday was around the corner.  Getting stuff ready to take to a new daycare, getting a backpack ready for school lunch money in tack, and most horribly laying out my clothes to go to a new gym after I drop off the kids. breath... ok I can do this.   I haven't been to a gym in lets just say a very long time.  Ive tried videos and the occasional trip to our little gym here in town, but in all honesty since Payton was born it has been a stretch of my imagination to say I'm actively pursuing my health in the aspect of working out.  So this morning I was learning and listening to about how our hearts are so deceitful.  Jeremiah 17:9  "the heart is above all deceitful and beyond cure. Who can understand it?" AMEN!! to that.  Our hearts lie to us and tell us easier is better.  What feels good must be good.  Well it feels pretty good in the moment to just eat whats on my mind and in front of my face, it feels good in the moment to not go to the gym and try to fit one more thing into my schedule.  But guess what?!?! It does NOT feel good to be winded going up the stairs, running after my 18 month old and even after a day of work being sore because my body can't support the extra tension.  Think of when you lift up even 5 extra pounds or a child and carry them. It is so hard on your body.  So even 10 lbs although not the end of the world, can be exhausting on your( my) body.  And my body just doesn't take extra stress well it is already stressed just surviving when I'm just sitting immobile at peace.
My heart lies to me.  It tells me I deserve things I do not, things that are not good for me, things that ultimately are actually harmful to my soul.  God tells me I deserve every blessing HE can give me. God tells me His ways will bless me beyond what I can imagine for myself.  But His narrow path seems hard to follow at times, that is when I need to rely on Jesus to carry me.  I am praying through this week.  I am praying myself to the gym.  I am praying God delivers me from my deceitful heart and eyes when it comes to food. 
Yes, we are crazy with too much on our plates right now.  Life can be overwhelming and stressful.  But the more I stray from God and His truth, although at the time easier, the harder life gets.  Because a life apart from Gods path is not only lonely but dangerous.  Don't take the easier path today.  Look to God, let him deliver, let him lead.  No matter how far down the worlds' path you are He will come when you call out to him.  I plan on calling everyday :)

Jeremiah 29:12-14
"Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.  You will seek me and find me when you seek me with ALL your heart.  I will be found by you, " declare the Lord, "and will bring you back from captivity."

Praying my way closer to HIM,
Laura